wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury?

2011-06-01T12:37:00.001-07:00

2011-04-16T09:55:00.000-07:00

went to vivo today.
wayne wants to get some hamster connector tunnel stuff.
i want to get my shoe from aldo.
joce and jess want to check out the tamagotchi.
so ya, we went to vivo.

jess got herself the above game she wanted since she was born.
and apparently we are(?) going to jess house to play it.
but cause jess is getting yelled at by her mummy because she's tidying the hse at
this hour.
i mean its kinda last min too
and we all dont want her to get scolded because of this.
plus she's not feeling well and stuff.
i guess we'll push it back to next week.
OH, its just in. *message* *next week lo*
so, hahaha. till next week then dancing game!

so, sum it up.
another dancing game.
just dancing to the tunes of MJ.

hell yeah, i'll like to see you motherfuckers do that.

OH!!! WAYNE GOT A HAMIE TOO.
HIS/HER NAME IS PEPPERONI.

this is not his hammie. but it is as fat as this furry lil bastard.

and wayne, this is for you.
flip pepp. over.
check if its a guy or a girl.

2011-04-16T01:19:00.000-07:00

i swore i heard kiji mumbled "babe, wanna wake up go racewerk with bernard & then we go eat hashbrown"
SWEAR I HEARD THAT.

so after we got out off bed, shower, got a little wet in the rain otw to the airport, then i remembered. so i ask him.

he told me. "siao. what hashbrown? i woke up, said i love you and gave you a kiss."
"how is that babe, wanna wake up go racewerk with bernard & then we go eat hashbrown?"

hahahahahahahahahaha.
well, i thought its funny.
i love you too (:

2011-04-15T04:35:00.000-07:00

I WANT A TAMAGOTCHI

2011-04-15T03:35:00.000-07:00

went to watch RIO today.
TOTALLY AWESOME.
oh oh. before i forgot.
lets rewindd back to the afternoon.

JOCE GOT A HAMMIE!!!! :D
and god damn isnt he the cutest furry lil bastard evar!
GEEZUS! lol.

and joce, you have a fucking 900dollars lens, cant you take a nicer, cuter picture of him?

like this.

so i only reached home at 11ish from kiji's place,
by the time i showered up and really
got the fuck out of my sofa.
(if you have been to my hse, and sat on my sofa, you know EXACTLY what i mean)

they were already leaving the SPCA and to my hse.
and SPCA to my home is, errr, less then 10mins if you are driving.
just randomly changed and got the fuck out. dont judge, everybody has those days.

so met them. them = joce, jess, wayne.
kiji was working so this entry has no kiji until the last part.
so if you are a kiji fan, dont bother. just read the bottom para or something.

soooooo, as i was saying.
we met and went to serangoon to get some hamster cage, food,
bedding....and all the furrylittlebastard's stuff.
and i went to get bunny's bottle. it cracked and water is spilling all over the damn floor.

oh, we went hamster hunting too.
cause when they were there, all the hammies were sleeping.
and she dont want a hammie that sleeps all fucking day.
but just to point out, hamster sleep in the day and wakes up at night.
so joce, the animal you are looking for is not a hamster.
its a tamagotchi.
speaking of tamagotchi, shall we get one jess & joce? (:

and with all the complication on either a guinea pig or hamster.
she went with the hamster.

and with the debates on either getting one or two.
thankfully, she went with one.
THEY TEND TO FIGHT!
hamsters are not humans.
or rabbits, or dogs or cats.
they dont give you a face that says; "i'm lonely"
if you feel that way, you are sooooo wrong.
you put another hamster in that cage with it, he thinks the other hamster is taking his food, home and what not.
next thing you know, two bleeding hamsters.
NOT COOL.

hamster hunting failed.
in the end went back to SPCA to get the hammie.

that's when she got her 900bucks camera lens.
i not even going to continue saying.
its her money.

jess went back home with me because i promised mummy i'll have dinner at home.
long time since i ate home cooked food.
and i dragged & "tricked" her to come along or she would have gone home,
and my guess is she wont eat either.

food was awesome as usual, we both had happy tummies.
decided to watch RIO, the movie.
and we did, at suntec.
because i was going to meet kiji at the airport after his work at 11.

but change of plans and what not.
ANYWAYSSSSS.
it is totally aweaome :D
in 3fuckingD.

i just love these two bastards:D

and guess what, rio is beautiful.
jess,joce,wayne,kiji? we should so go there one day.

so here's the kiji part.
instead of me going to changi, he came to suntec.
thats all. LOL
i know, he's the sweetest, but only for a while.

so he met me at so and so. not important.
we climbed the steps. not important.
so what IS impt?

soooooooo, we crossed this road.
wayne ran across the road. save.
then from no where a taxi turns in.
joce ran back forth for god knows what reason.
jess screamed :"OI! GAWH BLAWH BAH AHHHHHHH. EHHH AHH. OHH EISH!"
something along the lines of
:"OI! LYN GOT TAXI, STOP CROSSING. FUCKING DO A SHUTTLE RUN. AND JOCE, DONT STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET!"

and so i did.
which was fucking hilarious because i swore i heard her say that.
and that joce was standing in the middle of the road because
she had her groin guard. or what i like to call it.
her fucking cheebyeguard, to help us block the taxi.
thank you joce, and your cheebye guard.

awesomeness day evar.

2011-04-15T02:52:00.000-07:00

so joce moved to charlton villas.
went over that day to chillax.
really awesome place.
a little too small but awesome-ly cozy.
i was all up in her face bitching how small her room was.
but hey, you know i'm just doing my job as your best friend of irritating the shit out of you.
but for real. your room is too small.
go protest for a bigger one.

so we were jamming rock band on her xbox 360.
singing lips
and god knows the dancing dancing game
which was EPIC. hahahahaha

ordered dominos. the bread, god. FTW!!
went back boogey somemore.
facebook gossip. LOL.
we are such kaypo.

top it off, joce sent us all back.
thanks :D

and yes, your horse is the cutest toy EVAR!!

2011-03-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

heyheyhey.
so i am back to more constant updating of my blog.

i think there are a million and one things for me to update.
but who gives a shit anyway.

some great news to share thou. my graduation letter has arrived.
its official. hell ya, i'm graduating :D

giving thanks to all SP lecturers.
esp Ms Sharon Quek for teaching maths.
i am horrible at math but she never gave up on me.
so i didnt give up on myself either.
and i made it through.

thank you Ms Quek.

2010-12-10T09:25:00.000-08:00

i hate to see you like this.
it breaks my fucking heart.
i dont mean what i said.
i still care.
i fucking do.

you drink, and more drinking.
i know it numbs a breaking heart.
i know your heart is damaged.
i know life for you right now is tough.
but we'll get thru.
yes we.
just like the song.
i know you'll prolly think i suck balls.
and that i'm no longer your super bestest friend.
hurts me to know that i'm not forgiven.

but it hurts me more to know that you are trashing
yourself this way.
you laugh, you make jokes.
but i know you well enough that you are hurting like
an opened wound.
& that the best way to stop such pain is to end your life.

DONT FUCKING DO IT.

i cried in the shower.
i dont know why.
my heart hurts real bad too.
like how we can read each others mind, complete each others sentences
or even say same things at the same bloody time.
my heart hurts.

i hope this isnt too late.
but i'm sorry jess.
i still do care.
i still love you.
and that time will heal all wounds.
you deserve someone else better.
or even deserve someone else as a best friend.
you deserve someone that loves you for you.

i know the real you is still in there.
be strong and live.

2010-11-30T06:09:00.000-08:00

its not like me to feel this way.
to want to go away so badly.
not to experience anything.
not to see anyone.
i just want to be alone.
like for many many days.
i think 7 days would be perfect.
stress free zone.
on a island which isnt singapore.
or sentosa.

maybe not that alone.
away with my friends.
whr we have fun under the sun.
still, i would like to have some alone time too.

i would like to have breakfast in bed.

i would like to run around and feel like a kid.

i wish i had flowers in my hair.

i would love for you to be there too.

then again, one can only hope and wish,
because where i come from,
you must either be rich,
or filthy rich.

or pray for a miracle.
cause holidays like these dont just drop from the skies.

2010-11-30T05:29:00.000-08:00

rockband night was awesome.
so taufiq's parents went to haqi, then we crashed over at his
place.

we played rockband.
watch them play fifa, some really cute paintball shooting
each other game.
as well as burnout.

cause bunneh is a smokerrrr

play until like 4ish.
we ordered Macs for breakfast.
totally awesome.
hotcake with eggs :D

then continued playing.
watch tv.
then sleep.
who knew sleeping on the couch was so awesome.
taufiq has the best sofa evar.
but not as good as mine! hahahaha.
woke up at 11.
left at 4 to kcurb.
oh god my body was so tired.

went back to kiji's place to have dinner.
then back to taufiq's hse.
ROUND 2.
lol.

but because his parents are coming home soon.
so let that be the last day.
aint that nice ya know.

countinue playing.
watch playstation game tester.
\m/
watched family guy on tv.
next thing you know 7am.

totally awesome.
thanks fiq for letting us crash(:
your crib is super funz.

MY FUTURE HOUSE :D

2010-11-25T07:29:00.000-08:00

MY FUTURE HOUSE :D

2010-11-22T06:54:00.000-08:00

for jess; i know somewhr deep inside, my jessica is still there.

because there are still people in this fucked up world that still loves you for you.
because we are still the people in this fucked up world that still loves you for you.

and i dont want to lose you to anything.
not the monsters under your bed
or the demon that haunts you in your darkest memories.

if i could, i would use a fucking flash light to shine thru you and grab you by the hand and sing
the same old song i sang to you years back under that coconut tree in sentosa.

"because when sunshines, we'll shine together"
"told you i'll be here forever"
"said i'll always be your friend"
"took an oath, i'ma stick it out to the end"
"now that its raining more then ever"
"know that we'll still have each other"
"you can stand under my umbrella"
"you can stand under my umbrella"

2010-11-20T07:15:00.000-08:00

finally after 2 weeks.

met up with jess joce and wayne.

went to seoul garden, walked ard at ion.

but today is just not the day to walk into town.

more like a day to chill at canale or sheesha perhaps.

or maybe i'm just getting lazy :/

2010-11-10T08:51:00.000-08:00

just.damn.lazy.

2010-11-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

soooooo.
it has been some motherfucking donkey years since i properly updated my blog.
(is anybody still reading this?)
and since my class is 10 in the morning tmr.
i guess it'll be alright to give a quick update. (:

so..
1) my 21st birthday was awesome. thanks guys (:

i love you. even for this

cept for you drunk motherfucker who puke in the damn sink!
lol. that was funny thou.

2) china was really awesome.
even thou it reeally sucked for like an hr there cause EVERYONE speaks chinese.
but still, weather there was perfect. food not so, made my shit really stinky.

but it's really awesome to just relax a little :}

3) got myself an awesome iphone4. that was really long ago. but since i'm playing my game. why not blog it too.

CAUSE COIN DOZER IS AMAZING BRAINLESS & FUNZ.

duh, this is not the iphone 4.
but isnt this cool?

4) i am seriously hard working. cause for the first ever fucking time thruout my 3 years of poly life, i am doing my homework weeks before the class and paying attention.
i know. its like you dont know me no more D: thats what lee said.

IMMA GEEk.

then again, i still use fuck your cheebye every now and then. heh \m/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE!!!

bless you and everything you do. or simply, win 80K uh!

6) you saw this coming.

I LOVE YOU KIJI.

i know. awwwwww :)
now go fuck yourself bitches. nothing left to see here.
joking ;)
peaace out.

2010-10-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

feeling so sick in the gut )':
i wish i could do this right now.
fucking MERLION.

2010-10-24T22:22:00.000-07:00

2010-10-23T08:08:00.000-07:00

lovelove!

2010-10-04T11:20:00.000-07:00

its time we do something for earth.

2010-09-30T03:48:00.001-07:00

i know i haven't been updating.
and i also think nobody reads my blog already.
but since i've got the free time.
then update lor.

first up.
my birthday is coming!!!
second, on that day.
imma going to cheena.

i know. why china?
cause i going with kiji's parents what.
then they decide to go there. i also bo bian right.
they actually want to go to the states.
but then, like alot of things to consider.
like language and food.
then decided china.
so, thats that.

2010-09-05T09:15:00.000-07:00

thats right.
its bug's birthday(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH PEK!

what more do i need to say?
i love you so fucking much you cheebye

2010-07-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

i miss my long hair.

2010-07-14T23:04:00.000-07:00

its not about us. its abt u and jess.

well, that is just sad.
because i remembered we were there when you had no one there.
when your boyfriend is away.
we talked all night at spinelli.
when you almost broke up with him in the bus
and we met at macdonalds.
giving all the support we can.

then now, its us.
i dont want to fight.
just, it'll be nice if you could remember us.
dont blame us for being tight now.
dont blame for not asking.

because its always the same thing.
work.love.and unexplainable reasons.

ask yourself.
have we not tried?
i planned 3, 3 fucking months in advance.
jess advance birthday. you had your reasons.
i took it.
jess real birthday. you had your same reasons.
i took it.

ask yourself.
when you called that day.
you wanted to meet.
did we turn you down?
have we EVER turn you down?
now ask that to yourself.
have you turn us down?

i love you guys, so dont fight.
we'll meet. for sure.

2010-07-14T22:52:00.001-07:00

A penis has a sad life.
His hair is a mess, his family is nuts, his neighbour is an asshole,
his bestfriend is a pussy and his owner beats him !

2010-07-13T07:11:00.000-07:00

jess and i HAD to watch pokemon
then 6 freaking episodes of leverage today.
hahahahaha.
had the best bed in the world, speakers out loud, room cold like hotel.

chips,milk,smokes and baked pasta.
damn my house is awesome
:D

2010-07-13T06:54:00.000-07:00

have you guys watched this movie yet?
if you havent
WATCH IT!!!

IT'S FUCKING DOPE.
I WATCHED IT TWICE ALREADY.
:D

had me and jess talking 5hours about it.
what you think?!

and ya, i stole one of the minions home (:

2010-07-13T06:42:00.000-07:00

long time since i updated anything.
and since i'm free.

lets update(:

oh ya, i chopped off my hair.
because kiji said he'll give me 50bucks if i did.
and so i did.

hahahaha.
and yes, i got 50bucks.
but i returned him in the end.

2010-06-30T23:04:00.000-07:00

school sucks.
as always.
indian teachers, really.
it'll be nice if the school sent them for speech lesson.
BECAUSE, NO FUCKING PERSON IN CLASS IS AWAKE.
except of me and some nerdddsss.

josh is sitting next to me.
caught asleep.
:D

and if you are wondering, what the fuck is that thing on my book.
its joshua's 100dollars drawing of "the walrus man"

then after awhile, he woke up.
and we took pictures with the 100dollars art piece.
school sucks when your teacher is an indian.
(no offencce to all indian friends (: )

2010-06-20T01:53:00.000-07:00

you know it.
toy story 3D.

FUCKING AWESOME!!
& you gotta love mr potato head.
watch it and you'll know
:D

2010-06-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

i know you guys meant well.

i do appreciate.

but i guess its kinda like a freedom of choice.

Another person's preference.

i know its dangerous to learn how to ride a bike.

given the example of two vehicles getting into an accident.

one lorry, the other bike.

we all know the bike and the biker will get into serious shit in this case.

but thats totally not my point.

but i still do agree that bike has its dangers.

but hey, lets give a it a second to think about.

how safe is driving a car too?

same scenario, different vehicles.

car and lorry this time.

the car and its driver will also be in deep shit too.

you dont die, but you broke leg cannot walk for the rest

of your life, shiok not?

better off dead my friend.

dont say car, people on the street.

innocent people, minding their own business.

also gets run over by reckless driver all over the damn place.

so does that mean we dont walk on streets?

that we should not leave our house?

what i'm trying to say is, there are danger lurking behind every pillar.

and that it is inevitable.

we ride, accident die.

we drive, also can die.

walking home, crazy fuckers stab you to death, also die.

grow old, also die.

so, like i ALWAYS. and i do mean always say.

its not the length of life, but the quality if it.

2010-06-12T08:43:00.000-07:00

you think you know?
you dont.

i love you lin zheng liang.
now you know.
:D

2010-06-02T09:27:00.000-07:00

someone once told me.
the grass is greener on the other side.

but let me tell you this.
the grass is green at right where i'm standing.

awesome friends for 9 years.
never fails to turn my frown upside down.
never fails to hold me, and walk through my toughest times.
never fails to pull me back up, no matter how many times love shoots me down.
never fails to do KRAZY shit with me, even if it means rolling down hills.

awesome lover for years.
but why count, when you're in love.
does not matter we have been dating only for a year or so.
because it only matters and count when our heart is one.
say i'm beautiful when i wake up in the morning looking like a goof with eyeshit next to my socket.
say words of encouragement when my GPA is 1.35
goof around with me and bring me to random places out of sudden impluse, like a sudden trip to the zoo, or walk your dogs, or fly kite and even ice cream on a rainy day.
travel to places with me and slowly, maybe, hopefully, around the world.

with friends and lover like them.
sometimes i pinch myself, to see if its real.
cause there are hundreds, thousands, or maybe more.
hoping, they would have friends that dont backstab.
hoping, that, he might be the one.

and i cherish them, for them, just being themselves.
i have them, right here, where the grass is green on my side.

2010-05-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

sick like dog.
work like dog.

45mins of the most horrible bus journey home.
got down the bus, next thing you know.
vomit all over the grass patch.
felt like shit.
suppose to come home early yo have ice cream with mum because today's her off.
reach home she already sleep.
came home to only know i lost my mp3 charger.
balls

life.
sucks sometimes.

2010-05-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

PARENTS. they love you.
but they always show their care and concern in the most fucked up way.

like screaming at you.
telling you how much they want you out of the house.
like you are a complete stupid dodo because your school sent you an attendance warning letter.
accusing you of something you did, but actually did not do.

thats how my parents show their love to me.
and seriously.
i fucking hate it.
its not like i dont tell em, or talk to em, or dont come home without a reason,
or i sit at home and do nothing, or purposely dont come home early.

i talk, i always do.
i have friends that have birthdays, so i go.
i do housechores for you. i even dye your hair.
you ask me to find a part-time job. and i did.

i just hate the fact that i know, deep in my heart, i love em so much.
but perharps, they dont love me enough to think before they say.
because i'm hurt.

i'm so hurt not because what they say, but because
i cannot bear, my heart just wouldnt let me hate em for hurting me.

2010-05-15T08:56:00.000-07:00

so bug and i went to upper seletar hoping to see the sunset.
but we were too late.
you might be thinking, awww. so sweet.
or maybe even, ahyo. doing what uh ;)

but i swear.
nothing.
CAUSE HALF THE DAMN TIME KIJI KEEP SAYING HE WANTS TO SHIT.
LOL.
spoiler.

still, i was happy that he even thought bout the idea of bringing
me to see the sunset.

i love you (:

2010-05-13T07:59:00.000-07:00

PIMPLE IN EYE SOCKET.
CAN I 3M ACNE PATCH IT?

yes, seriously.
like what the fuck.
must be porn. watched it last night and i got it this morning.
it was all fine till i rubbed it.

I MEAN.
come on' dont you rub your eyes when you wake up?
apparently, while doing that.
that pimple crap thing burst.
and yes, both my eyes have it :/
i have to wear my stupid specs to school.
pssh.

went josh's workplace for icecream.
hmmm, just super love the kookies and cream with brownie and chocolate sauce.
made my day.

then to the doctors'
D says its okay.
some mild infection. given antibiotics, eyedrops, painkillers.
SO HAHAHA.
the whole panick attack of i'm going to go blind is alright now
:D

joce is coming back from japan tmrw.
hard but true.
i miss her.
yes, i miss you jocelyn foo ming wennnnnn (:

2010-05-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

i know i shouldnt have said such hurtful things.
i just want you to care a little more for me.

sigh.
i dont wanna ask much from you.
dont need to bring me to the doctors.
or send me to school if you cant.
dont need to be my my side when i'm running fever
or feed me medication when my time is up.
just a call or a text to ask if i'm alright will do just fine.

school first.
fyp second.
duites third.
sherlyn last.
i'm nt saying its wrong, do what you think is impt.
i dont want to be a burden to you and your school work, your fyp and your responsibility of being the new P.

but please, i have feelings too.
spare 0.01% for me.

2010-04-25T06:46:00.000-07:00

j; i fucked your mother..
BB; she's dead..
j; i know..
BB; D:

2010-04-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

i fell down the ramp during the freshmen party and hit straight to the stage.

i can hardly walk thanks to this extremely black blue-black at the side of my ass

and my whole leg is filled with blue-blacks.

yes, it hurts.

thanks bug for helping me rubbbbbb.
(: love you

2010-04-13T05:58:00.000-07:00

GENTING TRIP WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEE \m/

was planning to go to batam again this year.
but since singapore's weather is bloody hell hot.
paige decided to go to genting instead.
fucking aweeeeeeesome.

so there was me, kiji, jess, joce, gil, paige, joyce, kenny, jian hong, and two other female which i'm not really sure what their names are.

earlier that day, we had work.
OMG. fucking tiring.
according to jess, it was a SUPER KAO PEI SATURDAY.
yes. yes it is.
we got pointed at this. that. here. there. underwear.
then after work, car broke down.
talk about KP.

anyways, things start to change a little after a while.
kiji, joce, jess crashed over at mine.
cause my dad will be driving us all the fucking way to boonlay.
i stay at hougang btw.
:O ikr

you are looking at this and thinking, WTF?
let me just clear your mind a little.
joce was trying to sleep even though we are leaving in 45 mins time.
me and jess wouldnt let her ;D
love you joce.

i miss sitting at the back of the lorry with you guys.
newpaper flying, singing lady gaga and getting wet.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

the rest, i'll wait for jess to update her blog, then i'll steal it, copy paste here.
thanks jess, i'm lazy. hohoho.

2010-04-11T10:21:00.000-07:00

you're welcome jess.

i love you too

2010-04-07T07:37:00.000-07:00

i'm back from genting!!!!!
freaking awesome.......
will continue soon, right aafter i get the pictures scanned & uploaded

2010-03-31T10:43:00.001-07:00

okayyyyy.
blogging time.
this is what happened four days ago.
i got locked out of my own house.

because i am THAT SMART.
fml; seriously.

my parents went genting in the morning.
and because they were the last to leave.
they locked the house.
and i forgot to take my keys.
i didnt realise till everyone came over to my place to have a bbq.
-.-
i tried to climb the balcony but jess wouldnt let me.
jess tried to climb the balcony but i wouldnt let her.
8 storeys down.
i know.
death balls.

we called the lock smith.
$80 bucks.
called mum.
she laughed.
then tell me not too.

i felt like an idiot.
like i asked everyone to come.
like nice only.
to only find out i forgot my keys.
thanks jess for the clothes, underwear,bra.
thanks bug for letting me stay over.
thanks wayne's mum for being such a nice mummy to cook the stuff we bought.
thanks joce for trying to keep wayne's mouth shut.
thanks wayne for rubbing it in.

then again.
it wasnt that bad.
:D

awesome friends, awesome lover.
what else could i possibly ask for.
i'm just lucky (:

2010-03-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

i remembered saying this once to you.
whoever dies first.
me or you.
we would tatt the other person names on our body.
and to that.
if you were to die first before any of us.
my reply will still be the same.

i'll tatt your name on me.
because wherever god takes you.
seriously? i dont care.
but you'll still be a part of me; literally.

so dont feel upset or pissed for whatever the reason.
because you've gt me and i've gt you.
that, you can count on

2010-03-24T04:53:00.000-07:00

talk about a lazy day.
today is a fucking lazy day.

lets talk about yesterday first.
work.
WORST EVER.
so much stuff to clear, and god only gave us a pair of hands.
still, survived thru thanks to bestie (:

work till closing; 12am.
lucky got transport back.
in this mini bus thing.
jess crashed over.
i've never had friends crashing over at my place before.
and i'm glad jess was the first.

and talking about lazy.
we slept till 2pm.
okay, me, i slept till 2pm in the afternoon.
she till 1pm.
lol.
feeling lazy and heavy-assed.
we dragged ourselves to the market.
1) smokes.
2) check bank acc.
3) breakfast (fine, lunch)

freaking hot.
and lazy.

summarizing what we did today.
eat, smoke, tv, eat smoke, tv.
next thing you know 5pm already.

and now, its 8.

what a eventful wednesday. not

2010-03-22T13:02:00.000-07:00

they say absences makes the heart fonder.
oh how true that is.

he may not be the most romantic person on earth.
he may not be prince charming.
he may not be extremly wealthy, no car, no card none of the five Cs.
he has extremly weird habits; some pretty digusting

but maybe, just maybe, thats why our love is so cute.
sitting here alone on my bed just makes me missed him even more.

like catching a lightening,
the chances of finding someone like you; you're one in a million(:
and how can i describe this feeling the way we have.

& with every step together, we just keep on getting better.
and you were definitely worth fighting for.
so promise me, you'll never forget.
how you pull me close, how you always make that squirrel thing,
& how your eyes locked to mine.

no matter how far you are from me.
even though you're thousand miles away,
but nothing is going to keep us apart,
cause my heart is wherever you are.

this may sound so not sherlyn.
but hey, gotta believe it.
cause i'm really missing you right now.
like really dude.
really.

2010-03-22T02:23:00.000-07:00

i just got a phonecall from bug.
the first time i am actually soooooo happy to hear that lame chinese ringtone
that i pre-set for him :D :D :D

happy that his flight was a safe one.
and that he called me (:
he's currently at the beach over there.
and its cold.

awwwww. i miss him already.
still, happy that he's happy.

HAPPY (:

2010-03-21T09:48:00.000-07:00

bug is leaving for HK in 8 hours time.
he haven even go i already want to die already.
he'll be gone for 5 days.
WAH LAOOOO.
i know, 5 days, very short.
next thing you know friday already.
but but but.
i just miss him so much.
i know i prolly sound like some fuckass that is sooooo stuck to him.
i also dont know why i feel this way.
i just, just, dont bear for you to go :/

i love you so bloody much.
stay safe and enjoy.
i'll see you on fri at 12am (:

2010-03-16T02:59:00.000-07:00

my baby is going to hong kong in 5 more days.
):

2010-03-16T02:29:00.000-07:00

had a rocking good time at Le Baroque.
the live band is fucking awesome.
i had a blast.
$20 entrance fee, and a free flow of drinks.
i had one cranberry volka, orangejuice volka, a slip of red wine, other nonsense.
then i cannot already.
hahaha.
yes, go ahead and call me weak.
i'm not up for drinks, thats for sure.
hahaha. i know. party pooper much.

i could see how happy kiji was enjoying himself to all the rock music.
Bon Jovi, ACDC and etc.
the way his eyes looked at the guitar.
i could see how happy and excited he is.

maybe that will lead his interest to playing again (:

2010-03-10T09:16:00.000-08:00

first off.

I'M SO SORRY ABI!!!

i had to cancel our skate session so last minute because of work
):
i'll make it up to you.

somer on sat???
(:

anyway, work was okay i guess.
60pax.
some company event.
did i mention working with my best friend is totalllllly awesome.
like to the max.
in our work place, we are known as the charlies' angels.
me, jess and joce.
but since joce aint working with us no more.
we're just angels. as aziz would say.
aziz is our manager by the way.
and he's fucking awesome too :D

if jess, u're reading this.
better go to bed and rest!
and if you are reading this after you woke up.
go drink water and pee alot!!
lol.

and, p.s; i miss you

2010-03-09T10:45:00.000-08:00

a good friend once told me.
good things happens to those that wait.
and true enough.
it did.
i waited for my love to one day, perharps.
he will return.
and i could prove to him, but more to myself.
that it would actually work. that my love for him was beyond words can explain.

this wait was definately my first.
i am a very strong headed girl.
i never accepted lost.
esp in love.
over confidence, i guess.
i never waited for more than two weeks.
but for kiji, i waited.
he was worth the wait.

but this time, i wanted to prove to those,
who said he wasnt good enough
who said he wasnt worth my love
who said he was just another chapter of my life,
wrong.

he is want i needed.
people can say a million things about him.
but as long as i dont see him they way others do.
it's good enough.
i believe that he isnt the sort of guy.
who will take me like just another girl, but someone worth his love.
guys, like girls.
hunger for true love too.
that one day, a great young lady would sweep them off their feets.
that they could truely, proudly say to others; yes, she is the one for me.

and to the world, i know kiji would say that about me.
and to the world, i would say that about kiji.

that yes, kiji is the one for me.
hand-made taliored, for me.

i love you Lin Zheng Liang.
as long as we both shall live, i will not hurt you again.
(ps; does not mean physically but in your heart hurt :) )

2010-03-01T07:53:00.001-08:00

mum is isck.
and i'm worried ):

2010-02-28T07:16:00.000-08:00

argh.
exams.
FUCK THIS SHIT.

2010-02-26T09:45:00.000-08:00

i realised something really important today.
something i used to believe in.

let me just tell the story first k.
so i couldnt sleep.
for fuck why i dont know la.
its just one of those days you feel fucking awake even thou its freaking three in the darn morning.
so i was texting bug.
texttexttext.
then i called him.
we talked. & i should. SO SHOULD go to bed.
cause i had exams the next day.
so i asked him.
me; tell me a bedtime story. then i can sleep.
bug; i dont know any bedtime stories.
me; you will make the worst father :/
bug; nooooo. next time i will buy storybook. read from there.
me; anyhow make one up la.
bug; okok. so once a upon a time. there lived a princess, sherlyn.
this evil dinosaur captured her and wanted to rape her.
then suddenly a princee, kiji came to her rescue.
killed the beast then he raped her instead.
THE END.
me; what a dumb story.
kiji; i really dont know la.
me; go google la. since you using the com.

then we had to hang up.
he texted me saying he felt terrible.
cause i didnt sound THAT happy when we hung up.
i sat on my bed thinking.
thinking.
& more thinking.

i asked for a story.
he told me a story.
but not the story i wanted to hear.
then not happy??
what the fuck lyn.

i've learnt that he may not love you the way you want him too, doesnt mean he dont love you with all he has got.

i'm sorry bug. i love you.
<3

2010-02-21T09:39:00.000-08:00

ya. & so i went fishing today.
i know. i'm not a FISHING person.
still, i went with bug.
line fishing and bait fishing.
not bad i guess.
until it fuckin rain!!
like what the cheebye.
and is the heavy kind that lasted for 2hrs.
fishing also must stand, cast, blahblahblah.
then when got fish fucking panick.
why cant fishing be like this.

relax only

fishing is relaxing, calming and filled with serenity.
but i tell you. LIES! all LIES!
today i went, a couple of ah bengs were there also.
alamak. expected la.
all the vulgar and what not.
see fish come shout like mad.
see turtle come also shout like mad.
alamak.
where is the serene in that?!

after the rain we went to eat.
it was nice.
cause bug finally took me somewhr nice to eat.
i mean, at least it was nice to me
breeks (:

thou fishing is kinda boring, but still, i thought it was rather okay.
just fishing aint really my thing.
if wanna fish, then must catch something.
that's prolly me.

still, the day spend with you was awesome.
didnt expect more nor less.
it was just right i guess (:
nice dinner of hot plate salmon fish.
top it all up; chocolate fondue.
talk alot of rubbish.
laugh alot.
:D perfect.

arcade. super lol.
i like watching you play ur race race.
so its okay (:
i cant race for nuts.
so lets not malu myself uh.
hahahahahaha.

2010-02-17T10:01:00.000-08:00

I MISS THIS WOMAN VERY MUCH TOOOOOOO!!!!

I'M RIGHT HERE ABI!!!!!!
HOW LA? YOU EXAMS. I EXAMS.
HOW?
SIAN LOR. WAIT LOR.
WAIT UNTIL END THEN WE CAN SKATE LIKE THERE'S
NO TOMORROW.

& then we can burn alwyn ;)

2010-02-16T07:24:00.000-08:00

i think i'm sick.
i cannot stop thinking.
positive or negative.
both.
i am going nuts.

doctors in the house??

2010-02-14T07:26:00.000-08:00

i dont think this will work.
i cant see it working.
you're right.

2010-02-14T07:03:00.000-08:00

truth be told.
i'm scared.
i dont feel safe.
really scared.

please, someone.
make me feel better.

2010-02-10T09:36:00.000-08:00

as much as i want you by my side.
i know for a fact that its not going to happen.
i know you love me, you want me, you need me.
& just to let you know, i love you too.
and i really miss you.
miss you by my side.
miss you being mine.
but i know, this cant happen.
for now.

i'm not crying.
dont worry.
if crying would bring you back to me, i would cry till the whole singapore
flood and sink into the god damn ocean.
but no, crying wont help no shit.
not going to waste the effort, or risk my eyebags.

i know you haven't left me.
you are there. still there for me.
but i dont know really how to explain this feeling i have.
like i love you, but i cant have you.
it hurts. i swear.
i ask myself, is this status really important?
acutally, no.
whats important is what matters in the heart.
right?

i dont know.
my heart is aching. i have no idea why.
this song, your favorite.
i just had a random rush of moment, whr we spend our times together.
you havent left.
but why do i feel so lonely on the inside?

i dont feel safe anymore.
no one can make me feel the way like you make me feel.

until the time is right i guess.

2010-02-08T09:39:00.000-08:00

met up with jess carebear today.
FINALLY.
had labtest earlier today.
fucking alamak la.
hope can pass.
*fingers cross*

walked around town.
had LJS for dinner.
had so much crumbs.
like seriously; ALOT.
half the plate with crumbs.
so much jess could actually say she was tired of chewing.
go figure.

joce called to meet.
at first ask her to meet, then she said had to visit her granny.
then later not going.
meet up after training.
i mean, i was actually quite happy to hear that.
:) long time since i saw joce tooo you know.

low on chingching.
so went home with jess to take.
heh. she say my room looks american.
cheyy cheyy.
& i need a bigger cock board.
i think its fine, just, i have too much crap la.

walked over to macs.
talked cock. LOL.
saw kevin & hafiz there.
MAJOR LOL.
dont ask.

anyway, then joce totally pang seh la.
say wanna take 80 home with jess.
then suddenly mummy call say pick her up.
then off. not even hug, or wave
:/ psssh
hang out with jess, kevin, hafiz and omar.
fucking funny.
played musical lighter.
everyone got their turn on forfeits.
thanks uh jess. i meant really; its fair.
music is totally awesome too :D
i had to shout "FUCK ME LIKE A "******R"
WHATEFF.
then hafiz had to act all trans.
kevin had to call macs to ask for chicken rice.
omar had to walk like a bitch and kiss kevin and i on the cheek.
kevin took one for omar and kissed me and the cheek.
& the only person who never kena is jess.
psssh.

fucking scared no bus for jess.
already had 18bucks on me.
thinking that if there's no last bus, jess could cab home.
dont bother trying to figure out hw to walk home.
FUCKIN FAR BALLS.
i ask her to bus to my place, even thou thats two bus trips.
but, its safer i guess.
then so heng the bus behind the bus we were on.
& it was the last bus.
HENG OR WHAT?! ikr.
two bus trips means 2 bucks.
well, better then cab 18bucks.
FTW SBS.

2010-02-03T09:34:00.000-08:00

we play the waiting game because we are too afraid of making decisions.

2010-01-31T08:12:00.000-08:00

i get it.
you will be busy and you wont have time for mme.
not many meet up, rare dates.
stress at home, stress in school,
and future stress with fyp.
and more, responsibility when you become the next president.
not saying it will be easy.
but i believe we can.
but believing is no longer in me anymore.
this break period has taught me to give time and space.
and meant it.
i've learnt pretty well.
but i guess it isnt enough.
i'm ready to face the music.
but you are not.
many things in life you want and need to learn.
maybe because i've been thru.
so i cant say much.
your life already have so much pressure.
maybe its time to go.
Loving someone is letting him go.
enough is enough.
can't you see that the man is already stress enough?!
its time to back off lyn.
you are creating more shit that he needs to handle.
so go away lyn. go away.
its not going to be easy.
but dont be selfish.
think about him.

2010-01-28T23:54:00.000-08:00

taufiq's big day.
YOU ARE TWENTYTWO NOW.
happy birthday again fiq.
double the peace(:
i've only known you for so long.
& times with with you has always been fun:Dreally
all the best for whatever is laid down for you in the future
and may your wishes and dreams come true.

celebrated his birthday yesterday.
went fish n co @ glasshouse to makan.
as usual, neek was late.
but all is forgiven in the good name of taufiq.
dinner and cake.
cake; fish n co. style.
stand up on chair sing song.
lol.

next.
haji lane for sheesha.

then bugis ahbeng arcade for fun laughter peace and joy.
now kiji is addicted to the initial D car gamegame thing.
lol.

♥

his birthday pressie ;D

2010-01-25T09:12:00.000-08:00

what a lame monday.
._.
skated in an empty park.
with serious EMO in the air.
why is everyone breaking up?!

STOP!!!!

there's a need for love in this world.
sigh.
got me feeling all sad too.

just stop hating,start loving, before you lose it all.

2010-01-24T07:00:00.001-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCEEEEEEEEEE ;D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCE (aka F.A.T)
i know you think i'm an ass to put the tag and whatever still on,
but i was afraid it wasnt your size.
so stop being an ass and be like a normal birthday girl
and say thank you.
:D
still, a happy 21st.
first one among us three to turn twentymotherfuckingone.
i know i made a toast to you,
but i guess i still have somemore to say.
because you are my best friend
& there are things i'm shy to say face to face.
(oh shut up jess, dont go psssh at me. i will get shy too kay)
known you for 9 years.
every 2nd jan marks a new year for us.
and fortunately, we remain tight as ever.
i know we have our cold moments when i retained and all the drama shit.
but we made it thru and somehow we got back together.
you and jess are the people i will never ever give up on.
you guys were there when i needed help.
when my heart was broken. or when i acted like a complete fool.
we can not talk for weeks, but when we meet.
everything is alright again(:
life can be a bitch sometimes, and things may not go the way we want em too.
but fear not, cause like how you were there for me.
i'll be here for you.
i'll take a bullet for you if i have too. and you know it.

happy birthday again joce.
i love you (:

&& the sweet moments from the party that makes a A PARTY.
CAKE SMASHING + POOL THROWING.
and we all learn a little something from this

1) dont throw a pool party
2) get a muffin for a cake. nothing with cream.

& again.
happy birthday joce.
we love you:D
*MUACKS*

2010-01-20T01:05:00.000-08:00

2010-01-19T01:03:00.000-08:00

it's one fucking am in the morning.
feels like 11 to me.
fuck.
have to sleep. NOW.

2010-01-18T21:46:00.000-08:00

walking home yesterday and so happen to see this couple
fighting downstairs the void deck.

then there was this sudden urge.
i wanted to go up to em.
and tell em to shut up.
learn to cherish each other. stop fighting.

then again, it's totally none of my business.
and everyone one has their reason to break up.
if it isn't affecting the other party.
they wouldnt break up.

well, applies to me too.

2010-01-16T20:22:00.000-08:00

i'll learn to stand up again.
not saying that it will be easy.
but, it's time to grow up.
and learn from the mistakes i've made.

it's the time to smile and show everyone i have three front teeth.
:)

2010-01-16T07:21:00.000-08:00

but really.
i dont deserve you. and all your loving.
you have been a great bf.
all the things every girl would want in their search for prince charming.
and you fell in love with the princess's dragon; me.

i have been the lousiest gf in the history of lousiest gf.
i don't deserve you.
i don't deserve your second chance.
& i wont have a chance to learn to be a better lover.
because you deserve someone better.
you deserve a princess.

i cant blame anyone.
not you.
not bunny.
not god.
not alcohol.
i blame me.
if i haven't been such an asshole.
none of this wouldnt happen.
you wouldn't lose the confidence we used to have
and most important, you wouldn't go.

i give love a bad name.
come karma, give me your best shot.
i deserve it.

2010-01-16T07:19:00.000-08:00

my head still feels like its going to motherfucking blowup.
grrrrr.
or maybe i have worms in my brain or brain tumor.

2010-01-16T07:14:00.000-08:00

I LOVE SKATING WITH ABI!!!

if i have a sister.
i want her to be just like abi (:

2010-01-14T07:42:00.000-08:00

now, its my turn to ask for time.
it all feels different now. not all different.
just, really confusing.
i dont know anymore.

i'm sorry.

2010-01-13T05:44:00.000-08:00

thought the headache will go away after a good night's rest.
nbcb.
take it back. no good night rest.
the pain is always so shocking.
i was literally shocked awake by the pain.
followed by a loud ringing in my ears.
fucking pain.
want to die balls.

barely made it home today.
head in serious cramp.

2010-01-12T08:46:00.000-08:00

now my fingers are shaking.
whats wrong.
damn scared.

2010-01-12T08:17:00.000-08:00

my head feels like its going to fucking explode.
i cant take this pain no more.

extreme headache, funny feeling in the gut, & not the good kind,
i cant breathe properly, my nose is running like a crazy tap.

started in the bus on the way home.
thought it was just some random headache.
then it got worst.
i tried taking deep breaths. with eyes both shut and open.
useless.
i tried sleeping it off.
even more useless.

thinking maybe i need fresher air.
got down. what the fuck was i thinking?
fresher air out here? ah please.

walked, really tired.
i was breathing hard. i thought it will go away.
halfway through, i wanted to vomit.
by the time i'm in the lift.
panting and cold sweat.

homed, toilet, tried to vomit.
i wanted to vomit all the things inside that are making me feel so awful.
i want to puke out my brains out if i could.
cause its hurts so bloody much.
didnt work. nothing want to come out.

drinking warm water now.
hoping it'll help.

damn, make this awful feeling go away

2010-01-10T06:16:00.000-08:00

i kinda wish my mum can find out about me smoking.
so she can scold me, get over it.
& then i can smoke at home.

2010-01-10T05:55:00.000-08:00

OMG party was da' bomb!!!

started out with hanis belated birthday party
:D
thank you irna for inviting
& hanis! better love irna long time hor!
she paln so much for you!

but the weather that day..
CB. play prank on us.
sun.rain.run.stop.back.sunagain.rainagain.runagain.stopagain.BACKAGAIN.

BBQ. major camwhoring.
awesome chicken wings. THANK YOU IRNA & KIJI :D
played games. sry bout the flour again babe.
then off to skate!

1130pm; check in!
at first was quite dull. nobody drinking cause no mixer.
then the boys went out to buy.
then D realised no cups.
then they went to get cups.
._. ikr.

THEN THE PARTY STARTED.
ROFL @ jup,marc,add,D.
hell alot of screaming & shouting, toasted to many more OMG parties to come & non-stop laughter
of em crazy trippin' rappin'.
me and tracy bonded (:
shhh shhh matters.

next day skated.
skate tour-ish.
me and tracy and renee bonded :D
shhh shhh matters.
LOVE YOU GIRLS <3
skated more.
then the guys puss out then decide we all sleep on a wonderful saturday night.
pssshhhhh~
i stayed up.
talk cock with jup,kenny and tob.
more shhh shhh matters.
till 5.
sleep on the floor; comfy.
:D

checked out late.
extra charge 20bucks.
WTF.

macD for lunch with kiji,tob and renee.
twister fries rulez.
boomz.

best weekend of twentyten<3

2010-01-07T07:52:00.000-08:00

I NEED SCRAMBLED EGGS WITH BACON NOWWWW.

RAWRR.

2010-01-05T08:38:00.000-08:00

i was watching MTV's 16 & pregnant.
one word; respect.

then i thought.
what if i was like them.
okay.
i'm not 16.
& definately not pregnant.
NOT PREGNANT.
i mean for now.
nobody can say whats going to happen in the future.

i'm turning 21, will getting pregnant at 21 be easier? or harder?
mature? prolly.
emotional? definately.

my parents?
will they be supportive? or like those parents in the US?
i know my mum. cause i just aske her.
she says; then get married.
well, that is kinda like taking up responsibility now, right?

labour?
i've hear what moms have to say.
pain; unbearable.
but thinking that a new life you have brought into this world; priceless.
what about me? i'm fucking chicken when it comes to pain.
but i've learnt in school that pain gives positive feedback which is a good thing.

my boyfriend/husband/or worst.
will my boyfriend accept the fact? are we going to face it together?
tored between being a teen and dad. is he willing to give that up?
will he marry me?
or will he choose to live his life.

my friends.
will they stay. or slowly go because i have a tummy larger then my body, or
too disappointed to even look at me.

single parent.
will my parents still care like they do?
will i fall into depression?
no. i should stay strong for my baby.

what if all else fails?
adoption? abortion?
will i ever see my baby again? when he/she grows up. will there be hate?
abortion is killing. why the fuck will i do that?

i am definitely not ready.
use a condom.

2010-01-04T07:55:00.000-08:00

to a good old friend out there.
you know who you are.

i'm no smartass.
but you dont have to be a genius to know this.

;bros before hoes & dont trust a hoe.

2010-01-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

New Year's Eve and Siloso.
(taken from jess's blog because i'm damn lazy to type & we think the same.)

Gotta say, the party was well.. quite worth it. Apart from it being all boring in the beginning, Sherlyn got the crowd going.. well, kinda. And needless to say my energy spent on "WHOOP WHOOPing" and yelling "SAY WHAT!" when the DJ spins or if Pitbull sang "hotel, motel, holiday inn" for the 100th time...

Having Wayne around was fun too. He listened to me yell and then he would back me up. Haha. Series of unfortunate events followed, though.

I was forced to take part in the waveboarding tryout, thanks to Lyn. *roll eyes*
Realized I lost Wayne's handphone after that.

Figured it must've popped out of my pocket when we were all hyper and jumping like mad motherfucks. Now you know why your parents say to leave your valuables with someone that's sitting down, and not jumping around.

Sigh.

So, yeah.. started off the new year depres.. okay, not depressed, but upset, over the loss of his handphone.

See, the thing is, I don't lose things. Whatever I have, whatever valuables I keep, they're always there at the beginning, and they're still there at the end.

All my years in school and I'd hear my friends say they lost a phone, they lost their iPod, they lost their CD player, they lost a wallet, they lost keys, they lost their homework, etc etc

I never lost anything. And I'd always wonder HOW IN THE BLUE HELL CAN THEY LOSE SHIT LIKE THAT.

I never lost a single thing. Not my keys, not my wallet, not even the handphone.

If I ever said I lost my homework, it meant that I didn't do it, or someone else stole my piece of shit and copied it off.

So needless to say, handphone lost and everything, I felt like an absolute idiot, and Wayne, asshole he is, decided to rub it in hard as he could. I could feel the tension in the car when we drove.. and I felt bad. I don't know if it showed, but I felt bad then, and I still do now.

I didn't know how to fix it. How to make it better. Run back to the party spot? See if it's still there? Unlikely. We all know it. We know how it works. It would either be 5 ft under sand, in someone's hands, under someone's foot, smashed, or in someone's pocket. And the phone was off, which didn't simplify things.

Anyway, countdown to 2010 and everyone was all over Lyn. To the beach partygoer next to me that was grinding all over her, to the ang moh guy in front of her who asked her for a kiss when it struck midnight, to the half naked men dancing in their bermudas that wanted to squeeze her to death inbetween their man chests.. which didn't surprise me, really.

But it was good to be standing next to her.. it's like there's this chemistry. A song could play, and if we both knew the song, we'd just look at each other in the eye and just sing it out fuckn loud. And it rocked, really.

Remember when the entire crowd was singing and dancing and yelling to Bad Romance. Haha. It was a crazy night.

5, 4, 3, 2, 1.. and everyone's shouting Happy New Year and getting hugs and kisses and I just looked around. If my life for that one moment could've been slowed down by a notch, this is what the opening of the new year would've looked like.

There were so many faces, I was surrounded by people, by friends I knew. It was like as though their faces were all contorted, their smiles and grins uglified, believing that 2009 was a bad year, and that 2010 would bring about so much better.

And in my head I asked, 'what difference does it make?'

And people were jumping, and I was watching out for my toes against this indian fellow dancing on my right like as if he owned the entire spot where I was standing. And my head turned, and people were jumping, pointing at the sky, pointing at the stage, pointing at cameras.. I looked again, and someone popped a popper, and I saw Wayne and Joce making out. I looked away, and I saw Sherlyn getting hugged by strangers all around. People were hi-fiving me like a schoolkid.

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!"

Couples were kissing, guys were goofing around, people were pointing up at fireworks, and I looked up. The beautiful spread of colored lights, as it popped and fell apart. Red, blue, green, gold.. the loud pops of sound, the extravagant light display.

Somewhere out there, you would've been there. You probably would've been looking at the same thing. At this point in my post I don't know whether to say I miss you, or I wish you were there with me so I wouldn't feel alone so much.. but that's how I felt at the time.

Then Sherlyn jumps on me. And she squeals happily "HAPPY NEW YEAR!" in my ears.

And life resumes after that.

I wake up the next morning at Wayne's, I overhear him and his mom talking about cancelling the line, and yesterday's events hit me harder than a boring brick.

I lost his phone. Le sigh.

I looked at Sherlyn sleep, and I just shut my eyes.. falling asleep soon after. When everything in real life fails, go back to the world of magic, yes? But even dreams have room for nightmares.

So where do you go when life fails and when dreams turn to nightmares? Nowhere.

2010-01-02T08:11:00.000-08:00

i found what i lost today.
; my love for skating
(:

2010-01-01T22:37:00.000-08:00

they should put this sign up ecp skatepark.
then all the goons will go away.

2010-01-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

had a fight with mum on the first day of new year.

mum; where are you?
me; out. i'm out eating with my friends.
mum; might as well you dont come home?! leave.
me; i'm just going to eat. brb.
mum; cannot eat at home ar?
me; there's nothing at home.
mum; bread, maggi mee. not food.
me; i have been eating maggi mee for days.
mum; i am back by 4. you dont know?
me; i dont.
mum; of course you dont. might as well you move out.

can anyone die of overdoasge of msg?
i will die one day of eating too much maggi.

2010-01-01T06:32:00.000-08:00

HAPPY TWENTYTEN,
BOYS AND GIRLS!!!

:D

2009-12-29T08:44:00.000-08:00

my new piercing just screams motherfucking pain.
removed the stud.
like all wounds; blood.
and some other liquid stuff.
which explains the pain.
ouch.

2009-12-28T09:34:00.000-08:00

this sudden urge to wanna learn how to play the guitar.
i have no fucking clue how anyone is going to play that ( above ), but its pretty cool.

need to take up a new hobby to occupy my ever-thinking brain.
lets go rock and rolla~
\m/

2009-12-25T09:28:00.000-08:00

not going anywhr.
i maybe having fun, but like you.
moving on is tough.
ya, i'm feeling better.
but moving on, not really.
cause i'm thinking of you every second.
but still, lets not be too emo and enjoy what the festive season has
to offer (:

like the song by robbie william; you know me.
which is the second song on my playlist.

♫since you went away, my heart breaks everyday♫
and he's a bunny in the music video. LOL

2009-12-24T23:11:00.000-08:00

MERRRRRRRRRY CHRISTMAS.
&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS

:D

2009-12-23T20:58:00.000-08:00

isnt is totally awesome?
that your birthday falls on christmas or christmas eve?

thats double the presents baby!!!
wooooooots :D
hahahaha.

& today we have these two lovely ladies.
whose birthday is TODDDAAAYY!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LADIES.
HAVE A GREAT CHRISTMAS AND YEAR AHEAD ^^

FIONA & REENA

2009-12-22T21:42:00.000-08:00

i miss you so much(:

2009-12-22T20:29:00.000-08:00

fezz; thanks (:

keith; haha. i'm semi-emo. do i look like i give a shit? dont like then dont like la. _|_

2009-12-22T02:19:00.000-08:00

SCREW YOU.

sherlyn, you are possessive.
dont you think kiji treats you very good already?
do you love him?
you have got to learn to change.

HEY.
FOR YOUR INFO.

I KNOW.
i know i know i know!!!
and thats the thing thats killing me.
that guilt.
that stupidity i finally realised.
that fact that he is no longer mine.

DO YOU GUYS REALLY REALLLLLY WANT TO RUB IT IN.

i get it
screw you mother fuckers.
i dont need you to tell me what i am.
i know.
and i'll change.
not because i have to so that he'll be mine again.
maybe so. half the reason.
but because i want too.
for a better future with or without kiji.

so screw whoever that is going to say the same fucked up thing.

peace (:

2009-12-22T02:16:00.000-08:00

Goodbye Brittany Murphy.
Rest In Peace.

Brittany Murphy died yesterday.
celebs are getting smarter.
die before 2012, where the world ends and and you dying off wouldn't
be THAT special more.
cause people on the streets will go
me ; ' hi! i'm dying today.'
you; ' like OMG! so am i!!!'

Died at the age of 32.
21/12/09
so young honey.
and everyone thinks she's like MJ.
taking drugs and stuff.
WTF.

still, bless you, and your darling husband too.
i know how it feels like when something your hold dear leaves you.
peace out to you bro.

2009-12-22T00:23:00.000-08:00

jaarvis; too late. but, i'm looking on the brighter side now <3

yi jun; thanks babe (: nevertheless, i will try.

abi; thanks. i know i have to be strong. still trying to get back up.

bett; awww. *gives bett a super massive hug*

2009-12-22T00:11:00.000-08:00

the biggest party of the year.
countdown to 2010.
SILOSO BEACH COUNTDOWN.
have you got your tickets yet??

woots!!
i've got mine.
thanks to joce (:

This year, resident clubs on Siloso Beach will join in the New Year celebrations, to create a sandy dance floor measuring 32,000 square metres, equivalent to 25 Olympic-size swimming pools.

On the eastern end, Coastes will feature live music and chill-out grooves.

New club on the block, Azzura, a multi-level entertainment and hydrosports complex, will showcase a line-up of international and local DJs, like DJ Seb Fontaine and DJ ZigZach.

Café Del Mar will add to the party vibes with their selection of local ‘spin doctors’,

while Wave House Sentosa will turn up the water jets and DJ tower for barrels of sound waves.

The heartbeat of the countdown goes on at the Main Arena where local and international DJs will spin a medley of dance tracks from the main stage, to fuel the celebrations from dusk till dawn. Stiltwalkers, dancers, fire-eaters and fringe activities will add to the festivities. To complete the beach party experience, the ever-popular foam pool – the hallmark of a Sentosa
beach bash

Ticket Prices:

Early Bird (20 Nov to 18 Dec): S$29

Discounted Rate (19 to 27 Dec): S$35

Standard Rate (28 to 31 Dec): S$39

All tickets come with 1 standard drink redemption

Excludes Sentosa Island Admission and Transportation charges

Excludes SISTIC booking fee of $3

UOB Cardholders enjoy 15% discount. (hooray joce)

Tickets available at SISTIC and Sentosa Ticketing Counters:

Sentosa Station, VivoCity level 3

Beach Station

Imbiah Station

Imbiah Ticketing Counter

www.sentosa.com.sg or 1800-SENTOSA (7368672)

This Rain or Shine event admits those aged 18 years and above only.

:D.

2009-12-20T20:59:00.000-08:00

from jaarvis (:

Chin up girl , I know it’s wrong for me to say ’ Its all gonna be okay , its all gonna be fine ’ . But well , be positive . We all can’t expect everyday to be a happy day . Every moment to be a happy moment , and every part of our life to be filled with laughters and joy . There bound to have times where you feel like killing yourself , where you know you lost everything you have lived for . These times are not for us to kill ourselves of course , they’re there for us to learn . We have to experience this pain , cos’ you may never know if it will happen again . We have to learn from the mistakes we did . Life can never be an up-slope forever . We have to face the down-slopes in order to reach the up-slope . This point of time , you’re running on the down-slope. Don’t stop . Keep going till you reach the end of the down-slope. I know you can do it. We all have faith in you . Remember , your friends and loved ones cant help you throughout. If you start to jog , we will push you to make sure you start running , but if you stop . We can’t do anything . Cos’ you gave up. Now, don’t give it up girl . There’s more than what you think ahead of you . Reach for em . You’d do fine girl , I know .

I know how it feels , I know how it feels . I can’t believe I’m saying all those . I care for everyone else more than myself . I care for you alot more than I give a fuck about myself . <3>

- Jaarvis to Sherlyn Yoong . (: